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A Dying Rainbow

I'm always told that I'm such a wonderful person
And that I'm thoughtful, caring, kindhearted, and so important
But they don't see what's behind closed doors, the constant clashes with torment
Damage goes unseen as I blanket everything with cold smiles that seem slightly burdened

My tears quake while they hide behind my blackened shades
My hands tremble because I'm holding onto so much of this hate
My body is painted nonchalant so I have to appear in an emotionless state
My blood system is clogged with suicidal thoughts that make me want to break

I've been like this far too long
I wish I died before this had begun
S

I'm So Far Away From Hope

I'm So Far Away From Hope

Society told me the world is black and white
I didn't want to believe it
Because I want something more than a narrow minded life
I need something different

Feeling as if I was truly alone in this world
It's hard to keep believing
Feeling as if I no longer could move forward
It's difficult to keep breathing

I'm stuck between the realms of discrimination and belief
I had to lock away my tears in a prison
For I am the only one who can keep my resolve safe
But I'm such a fragile person
-
I knew I couldn't take any of it / I knew everyone is so swift with judgment
I knew I would fall to the hatred / I knew

Era Of Silence

Era Of Silence

Cascading glares swim around my whole body
Searching for some kind of flaw that I might have
But they don't realize that my life is the problem entirely
I can hardly keep on hiding all of the imperfections I secretly grasp

Denial is simple / If you say so
Pretending is impossible / I can't let you know

So I no longer speak for myself
No, not anymore
I feel that I deserve this hell
My pure torture
-
I'm just too snared by the knives in my back
No one wanted to accept me for who I really was
That's why I had no choice but to put up this wounded act
But I guess that's what the feeling of losing everybody do

ApocalypseAnother broken heart
People in forever pain
Open and ripped apart
Calm wants not, rain
All I see is a fresh start
Let all the rage drain
You are a piece of living art
Peace is the future, hatred slain
Slowly the world turns, a fresh start
Eyes upon the future, a new year, will love reign?

Promises Of Today

Promises Of Today

The sands of time can be unpredictable
But to mold them is impossible
And being let down is typical

I, for one, know what it's like
Having that unrelenting doubt dwell inside
And withstanding all of those tears that aren't dried

With that said
I want to help you, my dear friend
For the hope of happiness is within the reach of your hands
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I need to apologize for not always being there
It's because I have my own slate
But now I'm finally here
I'm sorry I'm late

I've been where you are
I've seen what you've seen
And I was able to break through the dark
But I'll go back for you, just to help you believe

That

Nightmare: The Only Cure

Nightmare: The Only Cure

My insides burn-

Like swallowing acid

Reality slows down-

Smiling is therapeutic
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Health is a virtue / Strength is torture
Alive again tomorrow / Enduring the horror

It's excruciating
To keep on breathing

Every reflection
Mirrors are left sickened

Grinning back at myself
You must be enjoying this hell

Perfect possession / Muffled suffocation
Heart is racing / Sight is darkening

In these hallucinations
My skin is melting

Oh how I wish I was dreaming
Of when I finally start recovering

It's only hopeful thinking
A cure for me is a delusion

Quarantined tears / Reality's nightmare
I am beyond repair / All were

It Came From The DarkIt Came From The Dark:

Amongst the ashes, swirling from the darkness of the pit,

Emerged a hand, dragging a battered body across the rocks.

Blood leaked from the wounds so callously self-inflicted,

And teeth ground with a focused determination and seething anger.

It cared not for the warm rubies - staining the jagged rocks,

It cared not for the sensation of pain...

All that it remembered was a dream, An obsession -

One that drove it ever higher; ignoring all else!

Eventually it emerged from this shadowy hole, this dreary depth,

And in that moment, it learned of the truth.

For this creature, denied sunlight and warmth -

was me...

Nightmare: The Tragic Lover

Nightmare: The Tragic Lover

In the silence
I can hear the lyrics
Of my mind's awareness

You're hidden from the world
Only to be known by me

My fate is foretold
You're the end that I wait to see
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The remnants of rust consume
The taint covering my heart seeps through
I am dying from a cancer that was caused by you

All it took was a wound
From the kiss that would seal it soon
I just wish that I could take you down too

From something so blissful / Bore a mask of deceit
I remain so resentful / I don't know what to believe

A being that could damage / A feeling that could heal
You pushed me over the edge / You made me wish it was real

I fi

No More Therapy

No More Therapy

Nothing works anymore
I knew it all along; the end is near
I've said it once and I've said it before
I was never meant to exist; I was not meant to be here

Hated by all / See me fall
Loved by none / Heart is numb
Rejected by life / Fallen from strife
From this- I've become / After this- I'm done

Through this blame
Is the choice
Of my decision

Hear the pain
In my voice
I am suffering
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I no longer could drown out the sounds
Swallowed from within
I was surrounded by an internal doubt
Regretting everything

Remember the days
Relive the nights
Of my shame
In my mind

Growing up in society
I got lost
Being raised with hypocrisy

Behind Hollowed Eyes

Behind Hollowed Eyes

Day after day
I tried continuing on to live this way

With damaged veins made of concrete
I am the undone suicide that was kept a secret

But I can no longer exist
Inside of this pretentious skin

There is a past that I wish I didn't remember
There is a future that just looks too painful

There is nothing you can say or do that'll help
Because there is no turning back now
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I drag everything down with my endless lies
I smother the remnants of hope until it dies
I win the battles, I win the wars, and I win every fight

I am a maelstrom of deceit
I am a darkness that you cannot defeat
I am the awaiting fate of this pathet

Breaking Out Tonight

Breaking Out Tonight

Your name is despair
And you demand that I live in fear

I gave you everything that you have ever asked
But I never got anything in return for any of that
Although you still managed to continually stab me in the back

Your name is remorse
And you wish for me abide by a damaging oath

Nothing but puppet, as I was used as your scapegoat
Sinister strings guided me to cast aside all forms of hope
We considered each other friends, because you were all I used to know

Your name is sorrow
And you want me to never again see tomorrow

I am your undying sacrifice, the one and only reoccurring offering
Once you had a taste,

Waking NightmaresWaking Nightmares:

It begins in the same way, every single night
Fire spreading from an altar in the darkness—
As all living beings are slowly consumed,
The coruscating flames appear wet with blood…

The scene then changes to a flooded hallway
Live wires dangling just above the water,
Like venomous serpents slithering in the darkness—
A single pounce would end my life…

Eventually the hallway ends with a door,
One that reminds me of forgotten yore—
And my thoughts shall be in rhyme at this point
As though lips and tongue are eternally joint…

What maddened schemes have they in mind?
It is not a questio

To Save Your Life

To Save Your Life

Heroes are hard to come by

Especially in this day and age

Because of you- I am still alive

Hail, the vanquisher of pain
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I fought as long as I could have
But I sank into the weakness below
And I felt my sorrow's wrath
The helplessness took over

My fists let go
Of the resistance

I fell from hope
The light faded in the distance

It was all a dream
A wish...

A simple false belief
I hid...
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Hands dangled frantically / Tears dripped endlessly
I needed a hero to save me / I yearned to be set free
-
A hand reached out
Held tight...

I was finally found
Relieved sigh...

I rose back to grace
And the darknes

FEARFEAR:

Frantically he scrambles away from the dark
Eager to be free of his waking nightmare
Acting only upon the instinct within him;
Reminded constantly that he is prey

For some time he hides in the pervasive shadows—
Earnestly praying that he will not be discovered
A single sound is all it takes to jar him;
Running from a creature that he can barely see

From head to toe it is certainly monstrous
Enshrouded in an aura of absolute repugnance
As the acid drips from its cruel jaws,
Rapidly dissolving the ground below

Fearful, he cowers, beneath boxes and cardboard,
Escaping away into a tiny corner of his mind
Alone with only

I'm Almost There

I'm Almost There

Strung out
But sober
Drunk with rage

Broken down
The oppressor
Altered by pain

They say...
They say...
They say the prison is here to save us!

To cage...
To cage...
To cage up the thoughts that are dangerous!
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Weeping for the hollowed
Can't live through tomorrow

My pride I swallowed
And I put on cold smile

My choice is my own
An addiction to being hurt

I want help, but I don't
I wanna change, but I won't

I have too many dark secrets
Flowing in my veins of concrete

This is what they've done to me
The product I like to call "a perfect tragedy."
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Blank stare
Too peaceful
Syncing with blame

A mirror
So pitiful
Soon to

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The Unwanted Dove

by ~HollowfiedLife, Dec 19, 2012, 5:49:30 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

The Unwanted Dove

My transformation could not be stopped
A weakened heart is to blame

Remnants of tears are left
I will never be the same again

So tired of everything / These memories of suffering
This is my dark reincarnation / Oh thou have forsaken

I am not your messenger anymore
I'm blind from keeping faith

I no longer recognize a savior
There's no more numbing the pain away
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Lock me up
Destroy the key

I'm not strong enough
To ever be free

So please clip my wings tonight / Never again will I take flight
Allow me to be useless / I yearn to be powerless

It won't be wrong
To take another shot at me

I am done
So cage away this false symbol of peace
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My metamorphosis conquered my will
A fate I cannot defy

I don't know if I feel any guilt
For my light's demise

It's not what I deserve / It crushed my dreams
This is what I get in return / From really trying to believe

In the wake of these shadows
I am left haunted

I am the corruption called sorrow
I have become the unwanted

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I step into a realm of grief
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I cast aside peace
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Critique by ~MzVPain Dec 30, 2012, 11:00:50 AM

Wow the photo of the dove was on your side. First of all, this speaks from outside and in.... I gleaned a vision of a person who is dark, who may also look ominous. The fact that the speaker asks for the wings to be clipped shows the personal loathing we can feel when we realize our nature is not what it should be. You have even given a hint to the environment of darkness. The use of free verse is an even better display of deviance. Metamorphosis, corruption, transformation, are all words which invoke the same horror of those around us when they see what we have become. (Your formatting reads like we are listening to the struggle of man vs. self) Your vocabulary for this piece is excellent, and I have to wonder where your inspiration comes from...Keep your dark secret deep poet!

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Critique by ~Demoness19 Dec 19, 2012, 6:14:27 PM

I have to say this is a very in depth poem. It captures the reader to keep reading on, to really get to the end. It shows how light can go to darkness, how unwanted darkness truly is. It truly makes the reader think of what this poem means, try to figure out the meaning for themselves. To me it is how easy hope and light, faith and love can be turned to darkness. Obsession and pain, and just tears of sorrow. The rhyme scheme threw me off a little bit. Sometimes it would rhyme sometimes not, but all in all a very deep and well written poem. Very good job, keep up the amazing work.