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I'm So Far Away From Hope
I'm So Far Away From Hope

Society told me the world is black and white
I didn't want to believe it
Because I want something more than a narrow minded life
I need something different

Feeling as if I was truly alone in this world
It's hard to keep believing
Feeling as if I no longer could move forward
It's difficult to keep breathing

I'm stuck between the realms of discrimination and belief
I had to lock away my tears in a prison
For I am the only one who can keep my resolve safe
But I'm such a fragile person
-
I knew I couldn't take any of it / I knew everyone is so swift with judgment
I knew I would fall to the hatred / I knew
A Moment Of Love
A Moment Of Love

This is a perfect chance of weakness to finally tell you that this isn't just a crush
It's not all about lust; I've always wanted to confess to you that I care about you so much

I apologize for being hesitant all of the time; it's just very hard to say you're my one true love
I yearned to say it out loud, but the words couldn't escape my mouth, that's what my fear does

I tried to say it to you in every lucid dream, that's how strong these feelings are
And I found myself waking up to tears of joy, because a true sense of hope is in my heart
-
I want to win you over
And I will never give up
Because you make the dark b
A Loveless Day
A Loveless Day
(That Will Never Fade)

This same old dream that I so loath
A vision of a dull world shrouded in gray

As I walk down a never ending road
The colorlessness in everything never seems to decay

In slow motion I suffer alone
Under the  liquid-silver droplets of rain
-
You had no idea how strong my love was
You played a part in the pain that was dealt and done

You didn't experience the ocean of tears that I had to swim through
You didn't see the countless days I had to endure without being around you

You never felt the sickness within the soul that I had kept
You never knew of the quakes in my heart that you ha
I'm Falling Down
I'm Falling Down

Pain just seemed to pass me by
Swift as tsunami waves touching the sky

Reality was nothing but a mirror
Melting away like frozen water on fading fire

I closed my sorrowful eyes
As if it was going to be the last time

And sparked images of my past that I don't want to remember
I was deceived every time I was told that it was going to get better
-
Flashes of agony
Infected my mind
And stinging anxiety
Shoots up my spine

Breathe/Breathe/Breathe

While despair wraps around my heart
I want to let it all go
This life was just too hard
I don't want it anymore

Please/Please/Please

There was no way out of this
I so
My Unblind Sins
My Unblind Sins

In the beginning I was emotionally blind
So I always pushed the guilt to the back of my mind
Even though I saw all of my lies with these heartless eyes

I'm the one at fault
For all of the wrong I've done
And I can't live with what my decisions have brought

I'm my own prisoner of these memories
Unforgettable stains of my grief
I'm also the warden, and I can't leave
-
Shackled by my mistakes
Wrapped in a chain of lies
I deserve the past I made
For the future won't be mine

Bound by the pain I gave
Locked in a cage of my conscience
I'm serving my time until the end of days
For this is my own form of self-vengean
Dependent
Dependent

It's one of those days
When everything goes wrong
And it hurts you in ways
When it feels like you don't belong

Thinking of the choices you made
What you've done
Questioning if redemption is too late
Can this guilt be overcome?
-
I deserve to remain
Locked within the pain
As my tears are wrapped in chains

And it's all true
What we all go through
Take all of my problems and give 'em to you

Because I cannot
Win back the battles I lost
For I am unable to pay the courage it costs

For those who say
That the past can't be changed
They're right, but the memories won't go away

So lead me astray
Carry all of my burdens
A Spark In The Dark
A Spark In The Dark

After I had met you
I found out that hope can be so wounding
Now I know what love can do
As the pieces of my heart are still falling

You made me fade in-and-out of heaven
Allowing me the taste of peace momentarily
And you're right back to testing my withdrawing patience
While I plunge back into the same old hell with this vulnerability

The feeling is too raw
A tug of war between different kinds of torment
I'm missing you so much
A never ending stalemate, the sorrow is infinite

Stay   Stay   Stay
Don't go, don't leave
Pray   Pray   Pray
Don't let go of me

....Please

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But you left me for the last time
I
Aura: The Radiance
Aura: The Radiance

I wore this pain like a crown / I was so broken
I kept on falling down / I felt my soul shattering

I couldn't hear anything / listening to my own twisted thoughts
I was blinded from everything / witnessing my own tragic downfall

I stopped dreaming of better days / I ceased believing long ago
My countless nightmares wouldn't fade / I was left in this dark world alone

I guess this is how I really pictured my own end
I just want it to finally be over with, I won't resent death

To the end of this long, and lonely road
Dangling on my unfinished rope

Lift me up, lift me up, lift me up, and don't let me go!
Hold me hig
A Sleepless Night
A Sleepless Night
(That Will Never Alight)

This same old nightmare that I grimly fear
An image of my life haunted by your shadows

I'm frozen in place, waiting for daylight to soon appear
But I don't know if I'm ready to take on another loveless tomorrow

Why am I the one who suffers when you're not even really here?
I should not have to be the one inflicted by your falsely bestowed sorrow
-
You made and broke every one of those promises
You left even though you knew that you'd be greatly missed

You were not the one saying that you're so sorry
You were not the one who was left crying uncontrollably

You didn't feel your heart being
Era Of Silence
Era Of Silence

Cascading glares swim around my whole body
Searching for some kind of flaw that I might have
But they don't realize that my life is the problem entirely
I can hardly keep on hiding all of the imperfections I secretly grasp

Denial is simple / If you say so
Pretending is impossible / I can't let you know

So I no longer speak for myself
No,   not   anymore
I feel that I deserve this hell
My   pure   torture
-
I'm just too snared by the knives in my back
No one wanted to accept me for who I really was
That's why I had no choice but to put up this wounded act
But I guess that's what the feeling of losing everybody do
My Invisible Life
My Invisible Life

Chest piercing
Pulse bounding
Barely breathing

I'm praying
On the surface of anxiety

I'm weeping
Getting used to this melancholy
-
They said...
They said...
They said...
They'd always be here to help

But instead...
But instead...
But instead...
I've always only had myself

I regret...
I regret...
I regret...
Opening the gates to this hell

It spreads...
It spreads...
It spreads...
And the screams are revealed

Tears shed...
Tears shed...
Tears shed...
I let my sorrow and resolve meld
-
Sight fading
Body numbing
Emotions withering

My desires are overtaken
I know this isn't right

But my lies weren't convincing
So this wi
Heartsbane
Heartsbane

Being around you like I am
It's a sensation I can hardly stand
Passed the point of torture, which I can barely pretend
So I have you show you I'm okay, and that I'm doing the best I can

This weight of my heart's world
Harboring all of these scars, new and old
And it contains countless secrets that I try and hold
Which I continue to endure alone, because I sold my soul
-
This pain is my peace
That's why I need you, please

Your hope divides the fear
So I will always depend on you being here

But I'm so afraid
To let myself love someone again

Because my hands are still stained
From all of those heavy tears that rained
Can't Let This GoLet's stop skimming the edge,
Stop dodging bullets, hanging off cliffs.
Hit me with your worst, baby.
I've survived the fall, the landing's no different.
A Dying Rainbow
A Dying Rainbow

I'm always told that I'm such a wonderful person
And that I'm thoughtful, caring, kindhearted, and so important
But they don't see what's behind closed doors, the constant clashes with torment
Damage goes unseen as I blanket everything with cold smiles that seem slightly burdened

My tears quake while they hide behind my blackened shades
My hands tremble because I'm holding onto so much of this hate
My body is painted nonchalant so I have to appear in an emotionless state
My blood system is clogged with suicidal thoughts that make me want to break

I've been like this far too long
I wish I died before this had begun
S
In The Distance
In The Distance

I've realized that nothing never really ends
Because it's just the beginning of the emptiness
-
I want to take back my actions / I want to give you reasons

I said all of the words I've needed
To you
And to the mirror

I wish those were silent confessions / I wish none of this had happened

I finally let out all of those feelings I hid
For you
Beneath my surface

They're just emotions from a fallen / Because without you I'm nothing

I meant every single tear I cried
With you
My one true purpose

I'm feeling so forsaken and faithless / To my world you're everything

I couldn't hold on as I slowly let go of my grip
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Every second of every minute, every hour of the day, every week in a month, after all of these years
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To conceal my old scars, and blood stained blades, everything about me will be hidden
To keep my words to myself, because I know that cries for help is my infinite ammunition

And for all of the times that I've made you worry and uneasy, I've thought of my self-punishment
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I'm sorry, mom, I didn't mean to cut myself with this blade of an unbearable pain
I'm sorry, dad, I didn't want to swallow those pills of an unacceptable blame
I'm sorry, everyone, I didn't mean to almost shoot myself with this gun of an uncontrollable hate

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I'm always having to reassure everyone that I'm fine, even with all of my unthinkable problems
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Rain Of Darkness

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Rain Of Darkness

Something inside me broke
The core of my soul snapped
That is when I felt this numbing cold
I blinked, and everything started to fade to black

When you left me alone
I felt this eternal betrayal
When you finally let me go
The pain inside me became unstable

The weight on my shoulders collapsed
While the world I knew faded
As the remorse relapsed
I'm consumed by hatred
-
Thou have forsaken
So the rest shall witness my conviction

My hope was taken
But was replaced by affliction

You knew what would happen
When you took back your salvation

Why am I the one abandoned?
I didn't take -ANYTHING!- for granted

Reverse and amplify the blame
The faith in others becomes my bane

Ridding myself of everything but despair
You forced me to let in what I've always feared
-
Something inside me crumbled
As the center of my heart stung
I made even the shadows tremble
When they saw what I have become

Believe me, I tried, I really did
But this is what happens what all trust is lost
So you've got what you've wanted
When you passed that line you shouldn't have crossed

My vision is shrouded in obsidian
As darkness rained from the hollow sky
I am now a part of the corruption
For I have been reborn with blind eyes
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As all hope fell down, I felt the rain
There is no turning back now, I feel the pain
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Critique by ~XanthiaB Jul 28, 2012, 2:07:27 AM
Separated into disjointed parts, Rain of Darkness by HollowedSky seems at first oddly put together. But then, as one reads closer, they find that this is not so.

The poem begins with a direct reference to the point of view, often crucial to a poem with a narrative such as this one. Then it brings in a unique ternary form, where the narrative in the first part and the third part link in order to make the second part flow.

Most extraordinary of this poem is the technique of structure that this deviant has used. Unique and singularly interesting to read, Rain of Darkness should not be passed over.
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~WingedLunacy Feb 4, 2013
Simply amazing.
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Mood: Wow! ~HollowfiedLife Feb 5, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you. I'm so glad you enjoyed this particular one. :D
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~freaky208 Aug 10, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Hi there!
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You may share this with your friends and vote for your or the other deviants' work.
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~garycs Jul 28, 2012  Hobbyist Filmographer
Wow...
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Mood: Love ~HollowfiedLife Jul 28, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
^_^
I'm glad you enjoyed it. Thank you.
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Mood: Love *COLOREDINLOVE Jul 27, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
They are both great..sad and brings a sense of anger and all hell is about to break loose..unleash the fury and reclaim what is yours...you.. Awesome honey!!
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Mood: Joy ~HollowfiedLife Jul 29, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
I'm so happy you liked this one. I tried to keep it toned down a bit. It's something completely different to me. I tried to imagine what it would....feel like being abandoned. There's a lot of symbolism here. @.@ As I just now noticed that :P
Thank you!
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~Hardly-Crazy Jul 27, 2012
Love this! :D
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Mood: Joy ~HollowfiedLife Jul 28, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
<3 Thank you so much.
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Your welcome ^^
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