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My Invisible Life

Chest piercing
Pulse bounding
Barely breathing

I'm praying
On the surface of anxiety

I'm weeping
Getting used to this melancholy
-
They said...
They said...
They said...
They'd always be here to help

But instead...
But instead...
But instead...
I've always only had myself

I regret...
I regret...
I regret...
Opening the gates to this hell

It spreads...
It spreads...
It spreads...
And the screams are revealed

Tears shed...
Tears shed...
Tears shed...
I let my sorrow and resolve meld
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Sight fading
Body numbing
Emotions withering

My desires are overtaken
I know this isn't right

But my lies weren't convincing
So this wi

Behind Hollowed Eyes

Behind Hollowed Eyes

Day after day
I tried continuing on to live this way

With damaged veins made of concrete
I am the undone suicide that was kept a secret

But I can no longer exist
Inside of this pretentious skin

There is a past that I wish I didn't remember
There is a future that just looks too painful

There is nothing you can say or do that'll help
Because there is no turning back now
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I drag everything down with my endless lies
I smother the remnants of hope until it dies
I win the battles, I win the wars, and I win every fight

I am a maelstrom of deceit
I am a darkness that you cannot defeat
I am the awaiting fate of this pathet

Dollhouse EarthShells, hollowed out minds -
brainwaves taken captive.
Where is my personality?

Thoughts reinvented, emotions
reprogrammed. I see through
my own reflection.
Face so familiar, but
Who am I?

Destroy, rebuild, wipe clean -
The archetecture of an artist,
or a mad man.
Genius deteriorating,
a frantic puppet-master
grasping for strings.
Children lost in a world of
their making.
We are dolls.

Chaos is always the punishment
for playing God.

Was it worth it?

I'm So Far Away From Hope

I'm So Far Away From Hope

Society told me the world is black and white
I didn't want to believe it
Because I want something more than a narrow minded life
I need something different

Feeling as if I was truly alone in this world
It's hard to keep believing
Feeling as if I no longer could move forward
It's difficult to keep breathing

I'm stuck between the realms of discrimination and belief
I had to lock away my tears in a prison
For I am the only one who can keep my resolve safe
But I'm such a fragile person
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I knew I couldn't take any of it / I knew everyone is so swift with judgment
I knew I would fall to the hatred / I knew

Colors of the LakeOften, words only needed to be written.
Sometimes, words are meant to entertain--
Collections of words
That want to be discovered.

But when you start to see them,
You don't see the letters;
You don't read the language anymore.
You fall gracefully,
And you are submerged
By liquid words
As they rush to slip over your eyes.
You breathe in,
And meaning fills you
Like air should.

When the bottom finds you,
It catapults you to the surface.
You cough and really breathe again,
Only to realize,
You never left the ground.
You know you were in the water,
At least in your dream.

And though that memory never leaves you,
The experienc

Nothing you could do"There is nothing you could do about it". That was something that always made me cry when I recalled it for the last few years.

I had heard it since I was a little boy wearing shorts running around in school. One day during our dodge ball practice my friends accidentally hit a girl sitting alone on a bench. It bruised her arm.While the other boys continued playing with no concern, I approached her, sitting nervously at the other end of the bench.

"Are you okay?" I asked.

She rubbed her arm a few times where the ball had hit her and then withholding tears she gave a weak smile "Its ok, the pain cannot be lessened. There is nothing you can d

Shade Of Blue

Shade Of Blue

From a deep slumber...
I have awoken
To this cruel color...
That leaves me haunted

My eyes scream
As I opened the door to my soul
Those thoughts of you start to bleed
Reminding me that you're just a person I used to know
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A dark ocean blue that I once knew
Leaked through my window
It matched this mood
Amplifying the sorrow

Sparking negative energy
It's the secret source of my core
The only element allowing me-
To survive another day, once more

Without a care
I can endure
Without a prayer
I push forward

So let this hue shower
With extreme hatred
Force the nostalgia to devour
And let my heart remain powerless
-
Wishing I was

BlackbirdA black winged bird sat atop a roof,
Nonchalantly humming its caws and coos.
For there on the street – down yonder it peered,
At the coming of jeers; the walking of fear.

It saluted its foe and hopped to and fro,
Unaware that behind the mask was a heart of gold.
But the blood stained cheeks and pale white hands
Reached out for the bird, thus it succumbed to their demands.

Feathers flew in the wind from the night time air,
A whirlwind of darkness – only the night could compare;
The bird found a place where it could perch and respite,
On the shoulder of a corpse – oh, what a delight!

A chuckle from a mouth that the he

A Spark In The Dark

A Spark In The Dark

After I had met you
I found out that hope can be so wounding
Now I know what love can do
As the pieces of my heart are still falling

You made me fade in-and-out of heaven
Allowing me the taste of peace momentarily
And you're right back to testing my withdrawing patience
While I plunge back into the same old hell with this vulnerability

The feeling is too raw
A tug of war between different kinds of torment
I'm missing you so much
A never ending stalemate, the sorrow is infinite

Stay Stay Stay
Don't go, don't leave
Pray Pray Pray
Don't let go of me

....Please

-

But you left me for the last time
I

Rain Of Darkness

Rain Of Darkness

Something inside me broke
The core of my soul snapped
That is when I felt this numbing cold
I blinked, and everything started to fade to black

When you left me alone
I felt this eternal betrayal
When you finally let me go
The pain inside me became unstable

The weight on my shoulders collapsed
While the world I knew faded
As the remorse relapsed
I'm consumed by hatred
-
Thou have forsaken
So the rest shall witness my conviction

My hope was taken
But was replaced by affliction

You knew what would happen
When you took back your salvation

Why am I the one abandoned?
I didn't take -ANYTHING!- for granted

Rev

The Words I Didn't Mean

The Words I Didn't Mean

While I'm finally seeing you walk away
All I can feel is my fragile heart about to break
Just wishing that I could erase this mistake I have made

I'm slowly getting drenched as these old tears drip down my face
My veins will never forget the love and pain that was shown on this day
And now I will always be haunted by those words I never even wanted to say

The last of your steps echo
Please, please, please come back!
I'm swallowed by my sorrow
No, no, no you j

Silent Faith

Silent Faith

My trembling hands
Don't want to come together

I refuse to feel weakness
Oppress the confessor

I will defy the defeat
Of my body and mind

And my tears will freeze
So I...will never cry
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I was once told
That I have to be strong
But a child can never grow old
When reminded that every action is wrong

I didn't need to know
That strength was everything
I would have given up a long time ago
Because that is my hollowed instinct

Take back every single breath / Take back those moments I lived
I am not some stepping stone / I am not meant to have a torn soul

You can only push so much / I can choose to give up
You're the only one w

True Despair

True Despair

“How the light has darkened.”
“How the strongest have fallen.”

This cloak remains
Unseen by many

A barrier to hide away
Covering up my damaged sanity

I have to act a certain way
And pretend I still have a sense of humanity

But I know it's too late
So there is no restoring me
-
I am both sword and shield
My bane is myself

My wounds will never heal
I am both heaven and hell

I fear my own reflection / I dread my own aggression
I am your ruination / I am your protection

I keep all destruction within / I keep all sympathy distant
I am your nightmare / I am your savior

The gift of infliction
Tells the story

In The Distance

In The Distance

I've realized that nothing never really ends
Because it's just the beginning of the emptiness
-
I want to take back my actions / I want to give you reasons

I said all of the words I've needed
To you
And to the mirror

I wish those were silent confessions / I wish none of this had happened

I finally let out all of those feelings I hid
For you
Beneath my surface

They're just emotions from a fallen / Because without you I'm nothing

I meant every single tear I cried
With you
My one true purpose

I'm feeling so forsaken and faithless / To my world you're everything

I couldn't hold on as I slowly let go of my grip
Of

Era Of Silence

Era Of Silence

Cascading glares swim around my whole body
Searching for some kind of flaw that I might have
But they don't realize that my life is the problem entirely
I can hardly keep on hiding all of the imperfections I secretly grasp

Denial is simple / If you say so
Pretending is impossible / I can't let you know

So I no longer speak for myself
No, not anymore
I feel that I deserve this hell
My pure torture
-
I'm just too snared by the knives in my back
No one wanted to accept me for who I really was
That's why I had no choice but to put up this wounded act
But I guess that's what the feeling of losing everybody do

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Nightmare: The Only Cure

by ~HollowfiedLife, Dec 8, 2012, 8:45:53 AM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

Nightmare: The Only Cure

_{My insides burn-

Like swallowing acid

Reality slows down-

Smiling is therapeutic}
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Health is a virtue / Strength is torture
Alive again tomorrow / Enduring the horror

It's excruciating
To keep on breathing

Every reflection
Mirrors are left sickened

Grinning back at myself
You must be enjoying this hell

Perfect possession / Muffled suffocation
Heart is racing / Sight is darkening

In these hallucinations
My skin is melting

Oh how I wish I was dreaming
Of when I finally start recovering

It's only hopeful thinking
A cure for me is a delusion

Quarantined tears / Reality's nightmare
I am beyond repair / All were well aware
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_{A bright light shone-

Like a welcoming presence

My suffering is done-

Take away my sickness}

Nightmare: The Only Cureby ~HollowfiedLife

Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

The only cure for life is death
The only cure for suffering is rest
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In volume nine: Harsh Hallucinations

Nightmare: The Compulsive LiarNightmare: The Compulsive Liar

Step by step
You attempt to walk away from yourself
Breath after breath
You try your best to not call out for help

I am so far from you, I am are better off this way

One tear after another
You were never good at hiding your feelings
All of those cuts seem to go deeper and deeper
You were always the one who took in all of our suffering

I don't know you anymore, I no longer recognize that face

Day by day
You endure this storm of scars
Night after night
You silently cry alone in the dark

I don't know what you're talking about, I'm fine, I'm okay

One dream after another
You see all of the things you

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Critique by ~shadowsmokeandfire Dec 8, 2012, 5:25:08 PM

This was a very macabre poem, but I have a feeling it was supposed to be. I really liked it, and it had a, interesting theme to it. The only comment I have is that the couple lines that are bold with slash marks between the verses can be a little distracting, because it makes people, well, at least me, wonder why these lines are different from the others. I understand if they were a thematic thing or you wanted to emphasize those lines more because they are more important. I'm just saying I was confused by them when I first saw them. Overall, an amazing poem, and I honestly wish I could write like you.

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~FeroniaAutumn Dec 17, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

I haven't come across your writing style before. I'm not sure yet what I think of it, but it sure is interesting! Also, the content is indeed very dark, but most writing is and I think the feeling you want to channel comes across perfectly. Well done!

~HollowfiedLife Dec 18, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

I'm glad you find my odd style intriguing. I work efficiently on making it uniquely creative. It has changed through out the years though. I'm sure it will keep evolving and changing as I go along.
Like I said to one of the other deviants that commented on this- I really wasn't trying to make it this dark, but it kind of just wrote itself in a weird way. I only hoped it was executed decently.

Thank you for your kind words. And hope you like my future work.