Under The Frozen Sun

The prophecy of my self-destruction is complete / I can see the reflection in your eyes
The sight of my face is full of grief / Your icicle tears mirror all of my lies

Every Moment Captured
Injected into my veins
My Conscience Tortured
Take back my pain

Spring's first sight has yet to be seen / All hope is lost, it's buried, buried, buried with thee
The harsh snowstorms cut endlessly / All hope is lost, it's hidden, hidden, hidden from me

One day we will find what we have been seeking
All we need to do is to just keep on believing

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There is n

Dreaming Of Rage

Dreaming Of Rage

I don't want to give into the maddening thoughts
I don't want to become what I am not

My clenched hands start to bleed
Because I despise falling asleep

Knuckles harden as I delve into unconsciousness
My bad blood boils away the sense of innocence
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Inner wars are fought / Faces yearn to be tarnished
All of my battles are lost / I put every bad memory into my fists

I don't want to know my true self / Different sides of the same coin
My reflection is altered by the pain I felt / We both will reach the breaking point
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The forgotten fury yells to be freed
The hidden hatred screams to be unleashed

The rioting rage roars to

Fixing You

A broken heart
made of glass and crystal
turned to stone

a perfect frame
yet so fragile
like porcelain

but perfection
doesn't matter
with no heart

but I will mend you
my little broken doll
so sweet yet so faint

I will hold your heart
in my hands
so delicately

I shall mend it
with a fine needle
and smooth thread

I have the technology
to cure you
to fix you

you little girl
with a porcelain face
I will fix you

But these cracks
so deep and long
have become so cold

so dead and still
after so long
of feeling lost and unloved

little lost cause
I want to see you
differently

but it has become so hard
so painful to try

I Love You

It may to late
But if you had a chance
What would you say?
Would you say
"I love you?"

I don't know
What happened
And how I got so far away
I'm so lost
The only place I can see
Is the wall of your heart
As you hold me close
Though the distance is long

I don't know most things
Though I act as if I do
And it may be to late
But if you had the chance
What would you say?

You see,
I don't know you
I cannot tell
I can only hope you'd answer
What I hope for

But I think it may be too late
And it is too bad, tragic even
Because although I'm far away
A spec on the horizon
If I had a chance
To see you again
I know what I woul

A Loveless Day

A Loveless Day
(That Will Never Fade)

This same old dream that I so loath
A vision of a dull world shrouded in gray

As I walk down a never ending road
The colorlessness in everything never seems to decay

In slow motion I suffer alone
Under the liquid-silver droplets of rain
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You had no idea how strong my love was
You played a part in the pain that was dealt and done

You didn't experience the ocean of tears that I had to swim through
You didn't see the countless days I had to endure without being around you

You never felt the sickness within the soul that I had kept
You never knew of the quakes in my heart that you ha

my story...my story at the moment is that my boyfriend abuses me and wont let me leave him he forces me to do things i don't want to do like sex i am anorexic every time i look in the mirror i know i can always be better but then i think who am i doing this for? and the answer is i'm unsure i just think maybe people will like me more and i know thats stupid my bf puts cuts all over my body and i'm not sure what to do with myself i just want to make people happy when i get to be alone all i do is touch my arms feeling the cuts that he left me with all my friends have betrayed me i know i need help but i don't want to admit it to myself my family docent care they say that when i'm old e nuff i have to leave there house everyday i am reminded that i am a stupid child that should never been born for clothes i go to thrift shops my parents hit me a lot as a kid and would also rape me i am scared of my parents. when i go to school i look fine because of make up and other items i walk

Alcohol Fueled Words

Alcohol Fueled Words

Blame can go a long ways
When the problems stay intact
Guilt always refuses to fade
After another hurtful attack

Regret has an unquenchable thirst
While voices are thrown every direction
Rage is tightly bottled up until the next outburst
Though the tears dry, the reasons for them won't be easily forgiven

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You bring out those secret, false words I don't even mean
You push me over the edge, and get rid of my sense of controllability
You expose hidden feelings that are supposed to be locked deep within me

You pull me into a downward spiral, to release my brutality
You choose innocent targets to go for, but y

Era Of Silence

Era Of Silence

Cascading glares swim around my whole body
Searching for some kind of flaw that I might have
But they don't realize that my life is the problem entirely
I can hardly keep on hiding all of the imperfections I secretly grasp

Denial is simple / If you say so
Pretending is impossible / I can't let you know

So I no longer speak for myself
No, not anymore
I feel that I deserve this hell
My pure torture
-
I'm just too snared by the knives in my back
No one wanted to accept me for who I really was
That's why I had no choice but to put up this wounded act
But I guess that's what the feeling of losing everybody do

ScarsYou see the scars across his face.
A knife pulled across his cheek.

You see the scars all over her body.
Flames raged, her body ablaze.

You see the scars on his arm.
Where he slid over the tarmac.

You see the scars which are her knees.
With which she fell upon the floor.

You see the scars over his eye.
The knife took it away.

You see the scars on her legs.
Which she has cut so many times.

You don't see the scars in their minds.
Of all the words they heard.

ScreamScream:

He steps out onto the stage, grinning as always
He can hear the bass playing as the drum sets the mood
So to warm them up, he begins with an introduction:

Though we have come here tonight as individuals
I believe that we will leave here as friends
Because no one else, except a friend
Would be willing to hear you scream.
And so, tonight, we'll be playing our song "Scream"

He takes a deep breath and the guitar begins to wail
The drumming heats up and he knows that this is his moment
In a voice that is low and filled with emotion
He slowly begins to sing his song:

When first you came upon this path
You thought that you had

Breaking Out Tonight

Breaking Out Tonight

Your name is despair
And you demand that I live in fear

I gave you everything that you have ever asked
But I never got anything in return for any of that
Although you still managed to continually stab me in the back

Your name is remorse
And you wish for me abide by a damaging oath

Nothing but puppet, as I was used as your scapegoat
Sinister strings guided me to cast aside all forms of hope
We considered each other friends, because you were all I used to know

Your name is sorrow
And you want me to never again see tomorrow

I am your undying sacrifice, the one and only reoccurring offering
Once you had a taste,

The Scar Project: Trapped in ScarsYou don't see the scars in their minds.
of all the words they heard.

Some in the present, most in the past
From all those mouths they come fast.

Some received, some that gave,
but they are all a kind of slave.

Trapped inside their own mind
because of abuse of some kind.

Some gave, all they receive
for their own actions they grieve.

Most are now tough,
one, didn't try hard enough.

Rain Of Darkness

Rain Of Darkness

Something inside me broke
The core of my soul snapped
That is when I felt this numbing cold
I blinked, and everything started to fade to black

When you left me alone
I felt this eternal betrayal
When you finally let me go
The pain inside me became unstable

The weight on my shoulders collapsed
While the world I knew faded
As the remorse relapsed
I'm consumed by hatred
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Thou have forsaken
So the rest shall witness my conviction

My hope was taken
But was replaced by affliction

You knew what would happen
When you took back your salvation

Why am I the one abandoned?
I didn't take -ANYTHING!- for granted

Rev

How Does It Look Like, On The Other SideVers 1

Are you here?
Can you hear me?
I just wonder
How it is on the other side
Are you fine now?
Does it hurt so much now?

Chorus

I tried all I could
In the end it didn't help
I tried to mend you
But I failed
So I ask you, my friend
Before I join you, myself
How does it look like
On the other side

Vers 2

Are you here?
Can you hear me
Sorry to bother
But I miss you too much
Why did this happen?
How did this come to be?

Chorus

I tried all I could
In the end it didn't help
I tried to mend you
But I failed
So I ask you, my friend
Before I join you, myself
How does it look like
On the other side

Vers 3

It's hard

No More Therapy

No More Therapy

Nothing works anymore
I knew it all along; the end is near
I've said it once and I've said it before
I was never meant to exist; I was not meant to be here

Hated by all / See me fall
Loved by none / Heart is numb
Rejected by life / Fallen from strife
From this- I've become / After this- I'm done

Through this blame
Is the choice
Of my decision

Hear the pain
In my voice
I am suffering
-
I no longer could drown out the sounds
Swallowed from within
I was surrounded by an internal doubt
Regretting everything

Remember the days
Relive the nights
Of my shame
In my mind

Growing up in society
I got lost
Being raised with hypocrisy

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Martyr:It's Never Too Late

You don't have to believe me, but I know
All the different kinds of pain, and processes of sorrow
What it feels like not wanting to wake up to see another tomorrow

I had every attempt planned out
I slammed the tear-stained pen down
I screamed in my head it's either never or now

And I slowly walked out onto the road
Trying to not turn back, because there's no more hope
I left it behind mixed on the paper, the last goodbye letter that I wrote
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Give me your hate / Hand me your pain

Toss me your blame / Force out your bane
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I've broken all of my blood oaths
Stacked on top of all the unread notes
The wo

A Dying Rainbow

A Dying Rainbow

I'm always told that I'm such a wonderful person
And that I'm thoughtful, caring, kindhearted, and so important
But they don't see what's behind closed doors, the constant clashes with torment
Damage goes unseen as I blanket everything with cold smiles that seem slightly burdened

My tears quake while they hide behind my blackened shades
My hands tremble because I'm holding onto so much of this hate
My body is painted nonchalant so I have to appear in an emotionless state
My blood system is clogged with suicidal thoughts that make me want to break

I've been like this far too long
I wish I died before this had begun
S

I'm Falling Down

I'm Falling Down

Pain just seemed to pass me by
Swift as tsunami waves touching the sky

Reality was nothing but a mirror
Melting away like frozen water on fading fire

I closed my sorrowful eyes
As if it was going to be the last time

And sparked images of my past that I don't want to remember
I was deceived every time I was told that it was going to get better
-
Flashes of agony
Infected my mind
And stinging anxiety
Shoots up my spine

Breathe/Breathe/Breathe

While despair wraps around my heart
I want to let it all go
This life was just too hard
I don't want it anymore

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My Selfish Rebellion

by ~HollowfiedLife, Jul 5, 2012, 5:00:37 AM
Literature / Poetry / General Poetry / Free Verse

My Selfish Rebellion

My dear brothers and sisters, you're so, so blind
And you're always hiding behind our father of lies
Taking commandments, even though you have your own minds

We were created so, so far from the truth
Hand and foot, constantly waiting to be told what to do
This is me unbecoming what I am; dividing myself from all of you
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_{Cast me into perdition
For all of my choices will be unforgiven

I will not stay in this golden prison
I refuse to listen

So try to tear me down
I dare you to smite me now

I deserve my own crown
A real sense of freewill is what I have found

I need to shed this halo of despair
I want this false grace to be devoured

Let me fall for my desires
While I set my own wings on fire}
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This bestowed belief is so, so controlling, I've seen it with my own eyes
Following some footprints while not making your own, staying within the lines
This is why I need to go my own way, and you all will see the footprints are mine

I've only ever seen the light, but it has now become so, so preposterous
For I can no longer stay inside of this dull sight, it has finally become too lifeless
I want you to witness me descend into darkness while I grasp onto a long awaited selfishness

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I rip my halo
I burn my wings
I take my kingdom

It's Heaven's Failure
It's a new beginning
It's my granted freedom
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This poem is written for my project, which is titled "Broken Wings Unbound: I"m Falling Down, I'm Soaring Now"

In volume six: My Maelstrom

My Selfish Rebellion -
My Unjustified Sickness -

My Unjustified SicknessMy Unjustified Sickness

My dilated pupils thicken with gray tears that render me blind
This spreading infection called human pain crusts over my tired eyes
Trapping in the unreleased torment as I now start to drown from the inside

My overly pale-shaded skin starts to stingingly peel away
Revealing the agony that I have to endure every single night and day
And it starts to make you wonder how much more of this torture can I take?

As it sinks itself deeper into my already broken flesh, I'm consumed entirely
It's tainting me whole, I'm a corrupted travesty, cringing as I decay so flawlessly
So please, I beg you to bestow me your numbing

My Broken Promises -

My Broken Promises

My Broken Promises

I know \ you don't need to remind me anymore
I heard / those heartfelt words many times before

You remember I said I would always be there for you when you needed me
But instead, I just upped and left the both of us, so heartlessly
Knowing very well that you're the most important person, I'm so sorry
Maybe these words of my inner hurt will help you understand clearly

I always thought that my first kiss ever would be with a special someone
But it was taken away from me in a split second, the loss cannot be undone
And I planned to keep my virginity for a little while longer, I wasn't ready yet

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~SaveAceOfSpades Jan 23, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

I love it! Very interesting thoughts from the angel. Why do we need our crowns?

~HollowfiedLife Jan 23, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

I just love the whole Angel and Demon concept. Ever since I got into supernatural, those types of characters influenced me in ways.
The whole crown thing is kind of weird I guess. It's like, the angel wants to get rid of the halo and replace it with a crown, which would symbolize that he/she is in charge or their own 'self' now. Or in simple terms- the 'king' of their 'self' ....if that makes any sense. Control of ones self.

But yeah.

~SaveAceOfSpades Jan 23, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

Much like you, I was very into the whole angel/demon thing since I learned about them as a little girl. At that point, they were good and evil respectively; but the lines always blur as you get older.

Aha! I get it! So interesting, and an awesome idea. I love hearing what the author thought whenever they wrote, so thank you for your take on it.

~donttuchme Jul 5, 2012 Student Digital Artist

very cool

~HollowfiedLife Jul 6, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

Thanks ^.^ I tried.

~donttuchme Jul 6, 2012 Student Digital Artist

I love a lot of ur work all of it and hope to see some more

*COLOREDINLOVE Jul 5, 2012 Hobbyist Digital Artist

Wonderful and inspiring..you write so well and your unique style of capturing the reader's attention and taking us on the journey with you..Awesome!!!

~HollowfiedLife Jul 6, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

Thank you ^.^ Comments like these keep me doing what I'm doing. So it does mean a lot when a person says that. <3 <3

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You are very welcome and looking forward to more moving pieces!

~Shyanne-Kai Jul 5, 2012

Wow, this is fantastic. Good wording choices, and I like how you have set this out.

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