deviant art

Deviant Login
Buy ArtBuy T-Shirts & Gear Buy adCast Buy Premium Membership
Shop
 Join deviantART for FREE Take the Tour
×
Dreaming Of Tears
Dreaming Of Tears

Weary-eyed
Weakened to the very core
Traumatized
I can't endure this anymore

I'm going to black out
And be transported to a realm
Where my screams don't make a sound
Hate keeps me bound while I leave my fears to drown
-
I loath the days without rest
I despise the nights of endless stress

Though I can't settle for anything less
Because lower than this is death

It's like living and sleeping within tortuous realities
Even though I'm unconscious- there is no such thing as rest for me

No one knows how powerful my dreams can be
No one knows all of the graphic images I've seen

Dive into the ocean! / Swim through the thorns!
L
My Darkest Hour
My Darkest Hour

I've become lost
In my sundered reflection

I've finally crossed
The line of desperation

I sense something sinister
Something that is beyond cruel

My tears seem to hinder
Ready to break down soon
-
The darkness is always waiting

To rule / To conquer
To swallow / To devour
To return / To overpower

The shadows are always lurking

As I cry / As I weep
As I beg / As I plead
As I fall / As I grieve

The blinding fear is consuming
-
My anxiety-infected veins pour
I'm beyond weak

I don't want to be afraid anymore
Let me bleed

This is the only way out
A perfect exit for a coward

No longer am I bound
I couldn't survive my dark
The Peace Seeker
The Peace Seeker

Whispers that no one hears

The world is deaf from despair

The sun becomes my throne

As I watch reality become undone
-
Someone can be another person's hero
If only love existed

Dusk will break with a darker tomorrow
Another day of being two-faced

Every second- a promise is broken
Every minute- a tear is taken

Every hour- a smile is forced
Every day- a child is born

I stitch my mouth shut / I finally had enough
Silence is my sin / Truth is my friend

Seal my eyes wide / Lies can finally hide
I will witness no evil / I will force another smile

Anyone can be someone's demon
Because greed insists it

Peace is no
Shade Of Blue
Shade Of Blue

From a deep slumber...
I have awoken
To this cruel color...
That leaves me haunted

My eyes scream
As I opened the door to my soul
Those thoughts of you start to bleed
Reminding me that you're just a person I used to know
-
A dark ocean blue that I once knew
Leaked through my window
It matched this mood
Amplifying the sorrow

Sparking negative energy
It's the secret source of my core
The only element allowing me-
To survive another day, once more

Without a care
I can endure
Without a prayer
I push forward

So let this hue shower
With extreme hatred
Force the nostalgia to devour
And let my heart remain powerless
-
Wishing I was
Reflection
Reflection

In the window...
In the ocean...

I see sorrow
I see confusion

I'll wake up tomorrow
And...forget my confessions
-
I regret every given sin
Replaying it all in my mind

Tattoos repent on my skin
They're serving a lifetime

Scars reveal past pain
And it's all mine

I see my eyes! / I fear my lies!
I scream inside! / I hide behind!

Tears won't fade! / Lost my faith!
I'm not okay! / It's too late!

I see through the cracks
Into my fallen reality

I put up a poor act
My transparent sanity

My soul finally snapped
Unleashed the real me
-
In the mirror...
In the destruction...

I see terror
I see justification

I'll wake up as an aven
Awake
Awake

Bestow me your fear

Give me something to fight for

Let the sleeping blood in my veins flare

So I can pick myself up and head towards the war
-
I run
For the sun

I seek
Justice in thee

I fight
For our rights

Cries become faint! / Lies become replaced!
The sinners pretend to be saints! / All of their promises were fake!

Choose the battles to wage! / Use that stored up rage!
Put on your war paint! / Take back your pride today!

Wipe the grief from your face! / Idle no more is the phrase!
Don't let your name be disgraced! / Our gathered faith will never fade!

Act now before it's too late! / The government doesn't have a sla
True Despair
True Despair

“How the light has darkened.”
“How the strongest have fallen.”

This cloak remains
Unseen by many

A barrier to hide away
Covering up my damaged sanity

I have to act a certain way
And pretend I still have a sense of humanity

But I know it's too late
So there is no restoring me
-
I am both sword and shield
My bane is myself

My wounds will never heal
I am both heaven and hell

I fear my own reflection / I dread my own aggression
I am your ruination / I am your protection

I keep all destruction within / I keep all sympathy distant
I am your nightmare / I am your savior

The gift of infliction
Tells the story
Rain Of Darkness
Rain Of Darkness

Something inside me broke
The core of my soul snapped
That is when I felt this numbing cold
I blinked, and everything started to fade to black

When you left me alone
I felt this eternal betrayal
When you finally let me go
The pain inside me became unstable

The weight on my shoulders collapsed
While the world I knew faded
As the remorse relapsed
I'm consumed by hatred
-
Thou have forsaken
So the rest shall witness my conviction

My hope was taken
But was replaced by affliction

You knew what would happen
When you took back your salvation

Why am I the one abandoned?
I didn't take -ANYTHING!- for granted

Rev
LOVE IS LOVESome people are Straight
while others are Gay
Some believe that Gays are a Sin
while others call it Love

Others are Bisexual
Who love both of the sexes
Many people call it a Sin
while others believe it isn't fake

There is nothing wrong with it
We are here to love one another
So why do people call us a Sin?
When to be Honest Love is a Beautiful thing

Many will think its wrong
while others think it's perfectly fine
Not all girls love Men
and not all Men love Girls

So why can't we all be equal?
Why must there be a Fight?
Maybe I will go to Hell
Cause maybe it is a Sin

If loving someone is a issue
if loving the same sex is wr
To Save Your Life
To Save Your Life

Heroes are hard to come by

Especially in this day and age

Because of you- I am still alive

Hail, the vanquisher of pain
-
I fought as long as I could have
But I sank into the weakness below
And I felt my sorrow's wrath
The helplessness took over

My fists let go
Of the resistance

I fell from hope
The light faded in the distance

It was all a dream
A wish...

A simple false belief
I hid...
-
Hands dangled frantically / Tears dripped endlessly
I needed a hero to save me / I yearned to be set free
-
A hand reached out
Held tight...

I was finally found
Relieved sigh...

I rose back to grace
And the darknes
I'm Almost There
I'm Almost There

Strung out
But sober
Drunk with rage

Broken down
The oppressor
Altered by pain

They say...
They say...
They say the prison is here to save us!

To cage...
To cage...
To cage up the thoughts that are dangerous!
-
Weeping for the hollowed
Can't live through tomorrow

My pride I swallowed
And I put on cold smile

My choice is my own
An addiction to being hurt

I want help, but I don't
I wanna change, but I won't

I have too many dark secrets
Flowing in my veins of concrete

This is what they've done to me
The product I like to call "a perfect tragedy."
-
Blank stare
Too peaceful
Syncing with blame

A mirror
So pitiful
Soon to
Nightmare: The Only Cure
Nightmare: The Only Cure

My insides burn-

Like swallowing acid

Reality slows down-

Smiling is therapeutic
-
Health is a virtue / Strength is torture
Alive again tomorrow / Enduring the horror

It's excruciating
To keep on breathing

Every reflection
Mirrors are left sickened

Grinning back at myself
You must be enjoying this hell

Perfect possession / Muffled suffocation
Heart is racing / Sight is darkening

In these hallucinations
My skin is melting

Oh how I wish I was dreaming
Of when I finally start recovering

It's only hopeful thinking
A cure for me is a delusion

Quarantined tears / Reality's nightmare
I am beyond repair / All were
Behind Hollowed Eyes
Behind Hollowed Eyes

Day after day
I tried continuing on to live this way

With damaged veins made of concrete
I am the undone suicide that was kept a secret

But I can no longer exist
Inside of this pretentious skin

There is a past that I wish I didn't remember
There is a future that just looks too painful

There is nothing you can say or do that'll help
Because there is no turning back now
-
I drag everything down with my endless lies
I smother the remnants of hope until it dies
I win the battles, I win the wars, and I win every fight

I am a maelstrom of deceit
I am a darkness that you cannot defeat
I am the awaiting fate of this pathet
Living a Lie.Living a Lie.

You say things you don't mean when you're angry.
You call me a waste of space and that you can't stand me.

When the dust settles you say you don't mean it.
You say I should know better than to believe it.

As usual I foolishly upkeep your illusive hold on me.
I allow you to mute my thoughts and take control of me.

You promise and reassure me that it will never happen again.
That this is the last time and you will put it all to an end.

But I know promises only comfort fools,
Who readily allow others to pull the wool

Over our eyes because it is easier to swallow the lies.
Can it be a mistake if it happens more than tw
As kidsThe grown-ups would ask, when I was a kid,
What do you want to be when you get big?
We were doctors and lawyers and superheroes!
All said cheerily through mouthfuls of cheerios.

Replies would be long, replies would be short.
"I want to be everything!", I said, with thought.
The bliss of childhood, I'll never forget.
Not once would a decision be filled with regret.

As we grew older, we knew were fooled.
The innocent friend that we called life,
Had an envious twin known as strife.

Ah well break's over, so back to work I go,
As dull as it is; to this day I'll still be reminiscing,
About a past much more exciting.

Kirsten Z. jacob
Browse More Like This

More from ~HollowfiedLife

Featured in Groups

:iconthe-dark-arts: :icondark-asphyxiation: :iconwritten-from-within: :icongbsta: :iconwriteaway: :iconartist-exposure: :icondarkartists-inc: :icongothikromania:
×


My Invisible Life

:iconhollowfiedlife:

My Invisible Life

Chest piercing
Pulse bounding
Barely breathing

I'm praying
On the surface of anxiety

I'm weeping
Getting used to this melancholy
-
They said...
They said...
They said...
They'd always be here to help

But instead...
But instead...
But instead...
I've always only had myself

I regret...
I regret...
I regret...
Opening the gates to this hell

It spreads...
It spreads...
It spreads...
And the screams are revealed

Tears shed...
Tears shed...
Tears shed...
I let my sorrow and resolve meld
-
Sight fading
Body numbing
Emotions withering

My desires are overtaken
I know this isn't right

But my lies weren't convincing
So this will always be my invisible life

734

59 22 20
:iconhollowfiedlife:

My Invisible Lifeby ~HollowfiedLife

DescriptionDetailsShare
Download TXT download, 1.1 KB
Even though you see me the way I am
You will never see whats inside of my broken mind
____________________________________________
Stock image - by :icondaestock:
____________________________________________
This poem is written for those who suffer behind closed doors.
They hide away from everyone, in fear that they'd push them away further.
Featured in my upcoming poetry book, titled- "Broken Wings Unbound: I'm Falling Down / I'm Soaring Now"
In volume six: My Maelstrom

My Invisible Life -
My Broken Promises -
My Broken Promises
My Broken Promises

I know  \ you don't need to remind me anymore
I heard  / those heartfelt words many times before

You remember I said I would always be there for you when you needed me
But instead, I just upped and left the both of us, so heartlessly
Knowing very well that you're the most important person, I'm so sorry
Maybe these words of my inner hurt will help you understand clearly

I always thought that my first kiss ever would be with a special someone
But it was taken away from me in a split second, the loss cannot be undone
And I planned to keep my virginity for a little while longer, I wasn't ready yet

My Selfish Rebellion -
My Selfish Rebellion
My Selfish Rebellion

My dear brothers and sisters, you're so, so blind
And you're always hiding behind our father of lies
Taking commandments, even though you have your own minds

We were created so, so far from the truth
Hand and foot, constantly waiting to be told what to do
This is me unbecoming what I am; dividing myself from all of you
-
Cast me into perdition
For all of my choices will be unforgiven

I will not stay in this golden prison
I refuse to listen

So try to tear down
I dare you to smite me now

I deserve my own crown
A real sense of freewill is what I have found

I need to shed this halo of despair
I want this fals

My Unjustified Sickness -
My Unjustified SicknessMy Unjustified Sickness

My dilated pupils thicken with gray tears that render me blind
This spreading infection called human pain crusts over my tired eyes
Trapping in the unreleased torment as I now start to drown from the inside

My overly pale-shaded skin starts to stingingly peel away
Revealing the agony that I have to endure every single night and day
And it starts to make you wonder how much more of this torture can I take?

As it sinks itself deeper into my already broken flesh, I'm consumed entirely
It's tainting me whole, I'm a corrupted travesty, cringing as I decay so flawlessly
So please, I beg you to bestow me your numbing


This completes volume six.
____________________________________________
Swing by my facebook poetry page and hit "like" to get access to never before seen work and so many extras. Here ----> [link]
____________________________________________
Check out my galleries below if you want to read more.
Watch me if you think that you might like my future work.
:iconchainoflies: :iconfeardomized: :iconominoushero: :iconhollowedsky:
©2013 ~HollowfiedLife
Category: Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

Details

Stats

Submitted on
January 9
File Size
1.1 KB
Views
734
Favourites
59 (who?)
Comments
22
Downloads
20
URL
Thumb
Only verified accounts can report policy violations. Please check your email and click on the verification link.
* Required field
Add a Comment:
 
Preview   Add Comment
:iconlightjer7:
~lightjer7 Jan 10, 2013
Love this piece so much :'(
been feeling like this all these years
Reply
:iconhollowfiedlife:
Mood: Joy ~HollowfiedLife Jan 10, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Awwww :'(
I really do hope in this new your, everything will start looking up for you, I really do. <3
Reply
:iconstarnoyume:
~starnoyume Jan 10, 2013
wow this is amazing powerful, the rhythm is so attractive that the lines are spinning in my mind now...
Reply
:iconhollowfiedlife:
Mood: Joy ~HollowfiedLife Jan 10, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you so much. I was kind of nervous about the rhythm with this one. Just because it was produced so quickly. But thank you for reassuring me with this wonderful comment! It means a lot! :D
Reply
:iconwaiting-for-wings:
~waiting-for-wings Jan 9, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
wow this is really well written
Reply
:iconhollowfiedlife:
Mood: Joy ~HollowfiedLife Jan 10, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you so much! :D It means a lot, thank you for your kind words.
Reply
:iconwaiting-for-wings:
~waiting-for-wings Jan 10, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
It's my pleasure
Reply
:iconsmonaghan119:
!SMonaghan119 Jan 9, 2013
very well written I enjoyed this, emotional and dark
Reply
:iconhollowfiedlife:
Mood: Love ~HollowfiedLife Jan 9, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you so much. It means a lot.
I'm happy that you enjoyed this one. ^_^
Reply
:iconghostpaint1:
Mood: Compassion ~Ghostpaint1 Jan 9, 2013
Very good rhythm! And you can really get the strength behind the words. I have no problem believing you were able to overcome whatever hardships came your way :)
Reply
Add a Comment:
 
Preview   Add Comment
©2013 deviantART. All rights reserved
About Us | Contact Us | Developers | Careers | Site Tour | Help & FAQ Advertise | Premium Membership Etiquette | Privacy Policy | Terms of Service | Copyright Policy