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Becoming The Darkness

I'm slipping
Hope is slowly falling away
It's coming
The shadows are consuming me

Please, relieve me of my guilty conscience
Because these memories haunt me to no end

Please, make me another one of the departed
Allow me to ascend from this lament
-
My sorrowful heart has been forever weighing me down
But I still tried my very best to carry on
My lonesome soul kept corrupting me even more
So I was never really brave or strong

The birth to a new side of me has risen
One that harnessed the tragedies

The gift of a curse is what I have been given
I'm in control of my own insanity
-
A tranquil calmness on the outside
I'

I'm So Far Away From Hope

I'm So Far Away From Hope

Society told me the world is black and white
I didn't want to believe it
Because I want something more than a narrow minded life
I need something different

Feeling as if I was truly alone in this world
It's hard to keep believing
Feeling as if I no longer could move forward
It's difficult to keep breathing

I'm stuck between the realms of discrimination and belief
I had to lock away my tears in a prison
For I am the only one who can keep my resolve safe
But I'm such a fragile person
-
I knew I couldn't take any of it / I knew everyone is so swift with judgment
I knew I would fall to the hatred / I knew

Era Of Silence

Era Of Silence

Cascading glares swim around my whole body
Searching for some kind of flaw that I might have
But they don't realize that my life is the problem entirely
I can hardly keep on hiding all of the imperfections I secretly grasp

Denial is simple / If you say so
Pretending is impossible / I can't let you know

So I no longer speak for myself
No, not anymore
I feel that I deserve this hell
My pure torture
-
I'm just too snared by the knives in my back
No one wanted to accept me for who I really was
That's why I had no choice but to put up this wounded act
But I guess that's what the feeling of losing everybody do

Nightmare: The Tragic Lover

Nightmare: The Tragic Lover

In the silence
I can hear the lyrics
Of my mind's awareness

You're hidden from the world
Only to be known by me

My fate is foretold
You're the end that I wait to see
-
The remnants of rust consume
The taint covering my heart seeps through
I am dying from a cancer that was caused by you

All it took was a wound
From the kiss that would seal it soon
I just wish that I could take you down too

From something so blissful / Bore a mask of deceit
I remain so resentful / I don't know what to believe

A being that could damage / A feeling that could heal
You pushed me over the edge / You made me wish it was real

I fi

A Dying Rainbow

A Dying Rainbow

I'm always told that I'm such a wonderful person
And that I'm thoughtful, caring, kindhearted, and so important
But they don't see what's behind closed doors, the constant clashes with torment
Damage goes unseen as I blanket everything with cold smiles that seem slightly burdened

My tears quake while they hide behind my blackened shades
My hands tremble because I'm holding onto so much of this hate
My body is painted nonchalant so I have to appear in an emotionless state
My blood system is clogged with suicidal thoughts that make me want to break

I've been like this far too long
I wish I died before this had begun
S

Rain Of Darkness

Rain Of Darkness

Something inside me broke
The core of my soul snapped
That is when I felt this numbing cold
I blinked, and everything started to fade to black

When you left me alone
I felt this eternal betrayal
When you finally let me go
The pain inside me became unstable

The weight on my shoulders collapsed
While the world I knew faded
As the remorse relapsed
I'm consumed by hatred
-
Thou have forsaken
So the rest shall witness my conviction

My hope was taken
But was replaced by affliction

You knew what would happen
When you took back your salvation

Why am I the one abandoned?
I didn't take -ANYTHING!- for granted

Rev

I'm Falling Down

I'm Falling Down

Pain just seemed to pass me by
Swift as tsunami waves touching the sky

Reality was nothing but a mirror
Melting away like frozen water on fading fire

I closed my sorrowful eyes
As if it was going to be the last time

And sparked images of my past that I don't want to remember
I was deceived every time I was told that it was going to get better
-
Flashes of agony
Infected my mind
And stinging anxiety
Shoots up my spine

Breathe/Breathe/Breathe

While despair wraps around my heart
I want to let it all go
This life was just too hard
I don't want it anymore

Please/Please/Please

There was no way out of this
I so

Fallen Into Darkness

Fallen Into Darkness

I'm a dark void, my shadow casts its own shadow
And I'm too much of a coward to even try and turn back
I'm so bleak, because I've managed to create a new breed of sorrow
And I'm such a fool to even attempt to move out and into the blinding black

My mere gaze can darken the brightest tomorrow
That must be why I am destined to remain here forever
My life is unaware that death is what I yearn to give into
That's another reason to sever every bond for the better

I vowed to myself that I wouldn't take you down with me
Your kind strength and light is what I can no longer borrow
I am nothing but a doubled-edged sword,

A Spark In The Dark

A Spark In The Dark

After I had met you
I found out that hope can be so wounding
Now I know what love can do
As the pieces of my heart are still falling

You made me fade in-and-out of heaven
Allowing me the taste of peace momentarily
And you're right back to testing my withdrawing patience
While I plunge back into the same old hell with this vulnerability

The feeling is too raw
A tug of war between different kinds of torment
I'm missing you so much
A never ending stalemate, the sorrow is infinite

Stay Stay Stay
Don't go, don't leave
Pray Pray Pray
Don't let go of me

....Please

-

But you left me for the last time
I

My Invisible Life

My Invisible Life

Chest piercing
Pulse bounding
Barely breathing

I'm praying
On the surface of anxiety

I'm weeping
Getting used to this melancholy
-
They said...
They said...
They said...
They'd always be here to help

But instead...
But instead...
But instead...
I've always only had myself

I regret...
I regret...
I regret...
Opening the gates to this hell

It spreads...
It spreads...
It spreads...
And the screams are revealed

Tears shed...
Tears shed...
Tears shed...
I let my sorrow and resolve meld
-
Sight fading
Body numbing
Emotions withering

My desires are overtaken
I know this isn't right

But my lies weren't convincing
So this wi

I'm Almost There

I'm Almost There

Strung out
But sober
Drunk with rage

Broken down
The oppressor
Altered by pain

They say...
They say...
They say the prison is here to save us!

To cage...
To cage...
To cage up the thoughts that are dangerous!
-
Weeping for the hollowed
Can't live through tomorrow

My pride I swallowed
And I put on cold smile

My choice is my own
An addiction to being hurt

I want help, but I don't
I wanna change, but I won't

I have too many dark secrets
Flowing in my veins of concrete

This is what they've done to me
The product I like to call "a perfect tragedy."
-
Blank stare
Too peaceful
Syncing with blame

A mirror
So pitiful
Soon to

A Loveless Day

A Loveless Day
(That Will Never Fade)

This same old dream that I so loath
A vision of a dull world shrouded in gray

As I walk down a never ending road
The colorlessness in everything never seems to decay

In slow motion I suffer alone
Under the liquid-silver droplets of rain
-
You had no idea how strong my love was
You played a part in the pain that was dealt and done

You didn't experience the ocean of tears that I had to swim through
You didn't see the countless days I had to endure without being around you

You never felt the sickness within the soul that I had kept
You never knew of the quakes in my heart that you ha

My Darkest Hour

My Darkest Hour

I've become lost
In my sundered reflection

I've finally crossed
The line of desperation

I sense something sinister
Something that is beyond cruel

My tears seem to hinder
Ready to break down soon
-
The darkness is always waiting

To rule / To conquer
To swallow / To devour
To return / To overpower

The shadows are always lurking

As I cry / As I weep
As I beg / As I plead
As I fall / As I grieve

The blinding fear is consuming
-
My anxiety-infected veins pour
I'm beyond weak

I don't want to be afraid anymore
Let me bleed

This is the only way out
A perfect exit for a coward

No longer am I bound
I couldn't survive my dark

Remains Of A Flower

Remains Of A Flower

One by one
I love you so

Petal by petal
I want you to know

Second by second
I would never let you go
-
My sick heart clutched the surroundings on the inside
Filled with unseen love that can't make it's way to the outside
Unseen tears bide, along with these strong feelings that I try and hide

My whole body wants to just curl up every time I see you
Concealing the secrets within, I guess there's nothing else I can do
So like a human flower, the emotions I have for you just grew and grew

Never ceasing, never sleeping, never thinking of anything else
I hate this daydreaming, because I always self-consciously dou

Behind Hollowed Eyes

Behind Hollowed Eyes

Day after day
I tried continuing on to live this way

With damaged veins made of concrete
I am the undone suicide that was kept a secret

But I can no longer exist
Inside of this pretentious skin

There is a past that I wish I didn't remember
There is a future that just looks too painful

There is nothing you can say or do that'll help
Because there is no turning back now
-
I drag everything down with my endless lies
I smother the remnants of hope until it dies
I win the battles, I win the wars, and I win every fight

I am a maelstrom of deceit
I am a darkness that you cannot defeat
I am the awaiting fate of this pathet

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Rain Of Fate

The proud flags were torn away
When warfare came

Burning buildings collapsed
Just like the nations which used to stand

We're no longer united
Because we're consumed by fighting

Quarreling over desires / selfishness is earned
Money sets lives on fire / morals are governed
-
Humanity conquered this gift of nature
Because we were given this curse of failure
Just our simple touch turns beauty into torture
And we won't stop, until we get more and more

The sins of our fathers
The prayers of our mothers
The tears of our sisters
The blood of our brothers

A man-made cycle of life and death
Believing in religion; and ab

Heartsbane

Heartsbane

Being around you like I am
It's a sensation I can hardly stand
Passed the point of torture, which I can barely pretend
So I have you show you I'm okay, and that I'm doing the best I can

This weight of my heart's world
Harboring all of these scars, new and old
And it contains countless secrets that I try and hold
Which I continue to endure alone, because I sold my soul
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This pain is my peace
That's why I need you, please

Your hope divides the fear
So I will always depend on you being here

But I'm so afraid
To let myself love someone again

Because my hands are still stained
From all of those heavy tears that rained

Timeless

Timeless

Seconds to minutes

There's nothing to show for my on-going patience
All I seem to cling onto is this futile existence

I'm slowly succumbing to the dreadful silence
Too long have I been dependent on hopeful emotions
Nothing to lose, and nothing to gain, thus everything is pointless
-
Hours turn into days

I helplessly idle by as life itself starts to decay away
It's just like throwing away the memories of yesterday

Those special moments I held onto, all of the happiness I gave
I thought it was all for something, because it can never be replaced
Though I only have myself to blame, as I continue to let everything be disgrac

The Words I Didn't Mean

The Words I Didn't Mean

While I'm finally seeing you walk away
All I can feel is my fragile heart about to break
Just wishing that I could erase this mistake I have made

I'm slowly getting drenched as these old tears drip down my face
My veins will never forget the love and pain that was shown on this day
And now I will always be haunted by those words I never even wanted to say

The last of your steps echo
Please, please, please come back!
I'm swallowed by my sorrow
No, no, no you j

My Broken Promises

My Broken Promises

I know \ you don't need to remind me anymore
I heard / those heartfelt words many times before

You remember I said I would always be there for you when you needed me
But instead, I just upped and left the both of us, so heartlessly
Knowing very well that you're the most important person, I'm so sorry
Maybe these words of my inner hurt will help you understand clearly

I always thought that my first kiss ever would be with a special someone
But it was taken away from me in a split second, the loss cannot be undone
And I planned to keep my virginity for a little while longer, I wasn't ready yet

Undeceased

Undeceased

It's just a matter of time
Before I leave myself behind

I've almost pushed everything away from myself
And soon there will be no more reasons to beg for help
I'm very slowly dissipating, and as this continues on there will be nothing else

I am just too tired
The ending is all I desire

I silently quiver as the waves of life crash against my hollow shell
Striking endlessly, and after living through this I don't even fear the depths of hell
Because being this strong means I've accomplished killing every emotion I've ever felt

This life of mine shall be undone
My era of hopelessness has begun

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Inner Demons

by ~HollowfiedLife, Mar 1, 2013, 3:09:45 PM
Literature / Poetry / Horror / Free Verse

Inner Demons

_{Silently peaceful
Praying for the prey

A saint so blissful
Don't let the old scars awake

Chaotically graceful
A storm of rage comes my way

Idle hands yearn to be unfaithful
Even the heavens won't feel safe}
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I am my greatest fear
I am my own worst enemy

The glares I give myself are fierce
I barely hold onto this false harmony

My twisted thoughts flicker / The acts of a sinner
The silence of a confessor / A secret held forever

The madness took over / Becoming hell's harbinger
I am the lawless; I am executioner / This is my will; this is my terror

I hated my own reflection
Knowing the truth behind the lie

I destroyed my own protection
I tore down the walls in my mind
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_{Beyond hateful
The light has darkened

A past so painful
Forcing fury to descend

Exceedingly beautiful
No more trespasses to repent

I am the child who became spiteful
I have been devoured by my inner demons}

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~camilah Mar 1, 2013

Your poem rock

~HollowfiedLife Mar 8, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

Thank you!
I'm so glad you enjoyed this one.

~camilah Mar 8, 2013

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*ThornsofPurpleRoses Mar 1, 2013 Hobbyist General Artist

Wow. I feel like this poem was written from my own emotions, my own experiences. How is it that the darkest work is what we can all relate to? I guess we all have the same demons inside us.

~HollowfiedLife Mar 8, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

I love relating to something that is true. It's like the admiration is amplified by a certain amount. Because we know what the trails and tribulations are like.

Thank you <3 I'm glad you enjoyed this one.

*ThornsofPurpleRoses Mar 8, 2013 Hobbyist General Artist

Exactly; it is much easier to understand something we have already experienced ourselves.

You're very welcome

~RoguetheScarredAngel Mar 1, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

oh. my. god.

i love this. It...its scary because it reminds me of me

~HollowfiedLife Mar 8, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

Well, I'm glad you found this to your liking.
I tried my best to not step over the line with anything in particular.
But yeah.

~RoguetheScarredAngel Mar 9, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

So cool! Hahahahahah

=CommanderEVE Mar 2, 2013 Hobbyist General Artist

Pfft... This is the writers feelings, not yours. You could not possibly understand.

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