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I'm Falling Down
I'm Falling Down

Pain just seemed to pass me by
Swift as tsunami waves touching the sky

Reality was nothing but a mirror
Melting away like frozen water on fading fire

I closed my sorrowful eyes
As if it was going to be the last time

And sparked images of my past that I don't want to remember
I was deceived every time I was told that it was going to get better
-
Flashes of agony
Infected my mind
And stinging anxiety
Shoots up my spine

Breathe/Breathe/Breathe

While despair wraps around my heart
I want to let it all go
This life was just too hard
I don't want it anymore

Please/Please/Please

There was no way out of this
I so
In The Distance
In The Distance

I've realized that nothing never really ends
Because it's just the beginning of the emptiness
-
I want to take back my actions / I want to give you reasons

I said all of the words I've needed
To you
And to the mirror

I wish those were silent confessions / I wish none of this had happened

I finally let out all of those feelings I hid
For you
Beneath my surface

They're just emotions from a fallen / Because without you I'm nothing

I meant every single tear I cried
With you
My one true purpose

I'm feeling so forsaken and faithless / To my world you're everything

I couldn't hold on as I slowly let go of my grip
Of
My Unblind Sins
My Unblind Sins

In the beginning I was emotionally blind
So I always pushed the guilt to the back of my mind
Even though I saw all of my lies with these heartless eyes

I'm the one at fault
For all of the wrong I've done
And I can't live with what my decisions have brought

I'm my own prisoner of these memories
Unforgettable stains of my grief
I'm also the warden, and I can't leave
-
Shackled by my mistakes
Wrapped in a chain of lies
I deserve the past I made
For the future won't be mine

Bound by the pain I gave
Locked in a cage of my conscience
I'm serving my time until the end of days
For this is my own form of self-vengean
No More Therapy
No More Therapy

Nothing works anymore
I knew it all along; the end is near
I've said it once and I've said it before
I was never meant to exist; I was not meant to be here

Hated by all / See me fall
Loved by none / Heart is numb
Rejected by life / Fallen from strife
From this- I've become / After this- I'm done

Through this blame
Is the choice
Of my decision

Hear the pain
In my voice
I am suffering
-
I no longer could drown out the sounds
Swallowed from within
I was surrounded by an internal doubt
Regretting everything

Remember the days
Relive the nights
Of my shame
In my mind

Growing up in society
I got lost
Being raised with hypocrisy
A Spark In The Dark
A Spark In The Dark

After I had met you
I found out that hope can be so wounding
Now I know what love can do
As the pieces of my heart are still falling

You made me fade in-and-out of heaven
Allowing me the taste of peace momentarily
And you're right back to testing my withdrawing patience
While I plunge back into the same old hell with this vulnerability

The feeling is too raw
A tug of war between different kinds of torment
I'm missing you so much
A never ending stalemate, the sorrow is infinite

Stay   Stay   Stay
Don't go, don't leave
Pray   Pray   Pray
Don't let go of me

....Please

-

But you left me for the last time
I
Rain Of Darkness
Rain Of Darkness

Something inside me broke
The core of my soul snapped
That is when I felt this numbing cold
I blinked, and everything started to fade to black

When you left me alone
I felt this eternal betrayal
When you finally let me go
The pain inside me became unstable

The weight on my shoulders collapsed
While the world I knew faded
As the remorse relapsed
I'm consumed by hatred
-
Thou have forsaken
So the rest shall witness my conviction

My hope was taken
But was replaced by affliction

You knew what would happen
When you took back your salvation

Why am I the one abandoned?
I didn't take -ANYTHING!- for granted

Rev
Vampire Vow!Silent echoes cloud mind
Memories of life unkind
Rootless nomad lonely strives
Nothing easy, not quite alive.

In reality there is no home
Quasi-existence walk alone
Endless longing guiding light
Remember well wrong from right.

Hope never abandoned him
Permeates midnight life
Love can only take its place...
...Inconceivable, he will not bite.

2012 Delice1941
10th August2012
A Dying Rainbow
A Dying Rainbow

I'm always told that I'm such a wonderful person
And that I'm thoughtful, caring, kindhearted, and so important
But they don't see what's behind closed doors, the constant clashes with torment
Damage goes unseen as I blanket everything with cold smiles that seem slightly burdened

My tears quake while they hide behind my blackened shades
My hands tremble because I'm holding onto so much of this hate
My body is painted nonchalant so I have to appear in an emotionless state
My blood system is clogged with suicidal thoughts that make me want to break

I've been like this far too long
I wish I died before this had begun
S
Darkness
Dark tunnels
Through which I see
An endless road
Of pure cold misery,

And although I've dreamt
Of a place of light,
Black fog rolls forth
And covers my eyes.

There is no escaping it,
The darkness of my soul,
The dark pit in my heart,
The loss of life's spark,

And although I've tried
To avoid this being,
With a grim smirk
I have seen
The monster in my eyes.

And oh, how sickly sullen
My mind has become
With the opaque illness
Too sickened to just let me die.

Oh god,
I want to die.

For, with death comes relief,
An eviction from this bitter world,
So filled with lies and chagrin
Just let it end.

Let me be done
With this agony,
This torment
Aura: The Radiance
Aura: The Radiance

I wore this pain like a crown / I was so broken
I kept on falling down / I felt my soul shattering

I couldn't hear anything / listening to my own twisted thoughts
I was blinded from everything / witnessing my own tragic downfall

I stopped dreaming of better days / I ceased believing long ago
My countless nightmares wouldn't fade / I was left in this dark world alone

I guess this is how I really pictured my own end
I just want it to finally be over with, I won't resent death

To the end of this long, and lonely road
Dangling on my unfinished rope

Lift me up, lift me up, lift me up, and don't let me go!
Hold me hig
Undeceased
Undeceased

It's just a matter of time
Before I leave myself behind

I've almost pushed everything away from myself
And soon there will be no more reasons to beg for help
I'm very slowly dissipating, and as this continues on there will be nothing else

I am just too tired
The ending is all I desire

I silently quiver as the waves of life crash against my hollow shell
Striking endlessly, and after living through this I don't even fear the depths of hell
Because being this strong means I've accomplished killing every emotion I've ever felt

This life of mine shall be undone
My era of hopelessness has begun

I could be so more much than t
I'm So Far Away From Hope
I'm So Far Away From Hope

Society told me the world is black and white
I didn't want to believe it
Because I want something more than a narrow minded life
I need something different

Feeling as if I was truly alone in this world
It's hard to keep believing
Feeling as if I no longer could move forward
It's difficult to keep breathing

I'm stuck between the realms of discrimination and belief
I had to lock away my tears in a prison
For I am the only one who can keep my resolve safe
But I'm such a fragile person
-
I knew I couldn't take any of it / I knew everyone is so swift with judgment
I knew I would fall to the hatred / I knew
Flawed Salvation
Flawed Salvation

/Liquid fire\
Sorrow melts and reforms
As heat seeps through my skin
/Frozen water\
Reflections of my childhood are torn
As frost settles on me once again
-
Restless echoes ramble on
Retelling me the stories of yesterday
I remember when my courage was withdrawn
"And you left yourself vulnerable to those crimes of hate."

The liquidsparks flicker
And I wince at that one memory
Then my inner voice suddenly stutters
"I don't know h-how you survived such t-treachery."

Snowflakes descend gracefully
As a cold-burning tear rolls down
I will never know real serenity
"Because all I will ever have is my own."
-
/Br
Words To Ash
Words To Ash

My embers burn / A fire roars
My inner war / A blaze of words

I wrote this for you
I wanted you to read it, I really wanted you to

But instead I kept it
So my pain remains hidden

Because I know that I'll probably never see you again
Which means I must find another way for me to be forgiven

Even if it's just a placebo effect
In order for me to try and move on
Because I will always be kind of broken
So this is me trying to undo what you have done

Maybe this has happened to me for a reason
Another   tragic   gift   of   believing
That I don't need vengeance
-
All you have is a life that is ready to break
All you know is how to
A Loveless Day
A Loveless Day
(That Will Never Fade)

This same old dream that I so loath
A vision of a dull world shrouded in gray

As I walk down a never ending road
The colorlessness in everything never seems to decay

In slow motion I suffer alone
Under the  liquid-silver droplets of rain
-
You had no idea how strong my love was
You played a part in the pain that was dealt and done

You didn't experience the ocean of tears that I had to swim through
You didn't see the countless days I had to endure without being around you

You never felt the sickness within the soul that I had kept
You never knew of the quakes in my heart that you ha
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A Dying Rainbow

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But they don't see what's behind closed doors, the constant clashes with torment
Damage goes unseen as I blanket everything with cold smiles that seem slightly burdened

My tears quake while they hide behind my blackened shades
My hands tremble because I'm holding onto so much of this hate
My body is painted nonchalant so I have to appear in an emotionless state
My blood system is clogged with suicidal thoughts that make me want to break

I've been like this far too long
I wish I died before this had begun
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I'm Falling Down
I'm Falling Down

Pain just seemed to pass me by
Swift as tsunami waves touching the sky

Reality was nothing but a mirror
Melting away like frozen water on fading fire

I closed my sorrowful eyes
As if it was going to be the last time

And sparked images of my past that I don't want to remember
I was deceived every time I was told that it was going to get better
-
Flashes of agony
Infected my mind
And stinging anxiety
Shoots up my spine

Breathe/Breathe/Breathe

While despair wraps around my heart
I want to let it all go
This life was just too hard
I don't want it anymore

Please/Please/Please

There was no way out of this
I so
My Unblind Sins
My Unblind Sins

In the beginning I was emotionally blind
So I always pushed the guilt to the back of my mind
Even though I saw all of my lies with these heartless eyes

I'm the one at fault
For all of the wrong I've done
And I can't live with what my decisions have brought

I'm my own prisoner of these memories
Unforgettable stains of my grief
I'm also the warden, and I can't leave
-
Shackled by my mistakes
Wrapped in a chain of lies
I deserve the past I made
For the future won't be mine

Bound by the pain I gave
Locked in a cage of my conscience
I'm serving my time until the end of days
For this is my own form of self-vengean
Rain Of Darkness
Rain Of Darkness

Something inside me broke
The core of my soul snapped
That is when I felt this numbing cold
I blinked, and everything started to fade to black

When you left me alone
I felt this eternal betrayal
When you finally let me go
The pain inside me became unstable

The weight on my shoulders collapsed
While the world I knew faded
As the remorse relapsed
I'm consumed by hatred
-
Thou have forsaken
So the rest shall witness my conviction

My hope was taken
But was replaced by affliction

You knew what would happen
When you took back your salvation

Why am I the one abandoned?
I didn't take -ANYTHING!- for granted

Rev
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A Loveless Day
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This same old dream that I so loath
A vision of a dull world shrouded in gray

As I walk down a never ending road
The colorlessness in everything never seems to decay

In slow motion I suffer alone
Under the  liquid-silver droplets of rain
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You didn't see the countless days I had to endure without being around you

You never felt the sickness within the soul that I had kept
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Up until today I've asked for what I don't deserve

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A Sleepless Night

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A Sleepless Night
(That Will Never Alight)

This same old nightmare that I grimly fear
An image of my life haunted by your shadows

I'm frozen in place, waiting for daylight to soon appear
But I don't know if I'm ready to take on another loveless tomorrow

Why am I the one who suffers when you're not even really here?
I should not have to be the one inflicted by your falsely bestowed sorrow
-
You made and broke every one of those promises
You left even though you knew that you'd be greatly missed

You were not the one saying that you're so sorry
You were not the one who was left crying uncontrollably

You didn't feel your heart being ripped away
You never considered the other side of the pain

For you I completely broke down
For you I remain in countless pieces now

But I vow to never go through that again
Because I will never give my heart to someone in vain

I want you to know that this is the cost
For I am the outcome of when you throw away your love
-
This cage named my heart won't let me escape
It feels like this will always be a part of my life

I will never move on because your memories are on the way
And I can't seem to be able to ever close these traumatized eyes

I don't know how many more insomniatic moments I can take
It seems like I'm reliving a sleepless night that will never alight

"I stayed awake tonight already knowing that I've had better nights."
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And every night
I look for mirrors to fight
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Critique by ~ZappHappy Aug 13, 2012, 6:00:02 PM
This is beautiful, it is very touching and it can be understood by everyone. The words you use don't confuse me or make me pause, it has a rhythm and it flows very well. The only part that tripped me up was this line "But how long do I have to wait to see a darkless tomorrow?" A darkless tomorrow sounds awkward and made me have to think about it for a second. It would work better if you reworded that. Overall it was very touching and it made me feel something. "This cage named my heart won't let me escape" is my favorite line, it touches me and I can relate, as can most people. Good Job. 8.5/10
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~AngelofLight03 Sep 17, 2012  Student Writer
This is beautifully written.
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Mood: Sadness ~HollowfiedLife Sep 20, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you, this poem is a really personal one.
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~AngelofLight03 Sep 21, 2012  Student Writer
You're welcome.
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Mood: Love ~librian637 Aug 16, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
very touching and beautiful, i love it
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Mood: Joy ~HollowfiedLife Aug 22, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
It was really hard writing this one, but I'm glad its done and over with.
Thank you. :D
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Mood: Joy ~librian637 Aug 24, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
ur welcome
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Mood: Love *COLOREDINLOVE Aug 16, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Usually your first love that ends in a broken heart and totally wipes all the joy and happiness from you,is a tough one to get over...you aren't as angry now..that I can see~~ You are expressing your feelings after the damage has been done...keep on writing honey..one day I know it will be better and this will change the way you fall in love again..a little more guarded but don't let this keep you from finding the right one..he is out there...reading this and thinking about you too...lots of love!! Brenda :heart::love:
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Mood: Wow! ~HollowfiedLife Aug 22, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
:)
I've kind of let go of all that recently, and it's just an odd sense of freedom. More freedom that i've felt in all my lifetime. So, with me writing these, it's just like getting it all out of my system. I hope you're right about the future. I don't know.

But again, thank you <3
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Mood: Love *COLOREDINLOVE Aug 22, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
It will happen..I am still single after my last one..2 years later..not really wanting to go head first into another relationship since I have so much of myself that need to grow and become the person who laughed and found joy in life....It is a slow process but not impossible!
You realize your writing is bring together so many other people who can relate to you and are thankful they aren't alone and can get a new friend too.. I am following you on FB too!! So..Good luck and I am proud of you and your sweet soul! You will be loved....Brenda
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